LEARNING TO THINK “me, myself and I” has been the 2nd hardest thing I’ve ever done so far in this lifetime.  As a child I was raised to function in the family structure.  I’d developed into an adult person who gave importance to “we”.  Yet, I’m more than aware there are some who view “me, myself and I” as a desired, happy place.  A place of independence, a place of personal achievement, a place to have conquered life without the support of a permanent mate……….  well, I can’t say I’m at “that place”.  I enjoyed marriage with Loren and the structure it provided.

But, being catapulted into singleness has:

• Caused me to acknowledge I can get by as a single person although

  

  this  would never have been my first choice.

• Put me in a position to feel inescapable loneliness.

• Forced me to learn to occupy my time with new things.

• Made me realize all the more how much I did depend upon and need my husband. A person just doesn’t realize how much “the two had become one” until you lose them. 

But, today I bear a banner saying “All will be well”.  Today I bear an attitude of gratefulness.  Today I bear a heart of thankfulness that I am blessed.  And I am growing. 

I am growing because:

• I’ve decided I can do this! Millions upon millions of people have lived unrequested single lives and existed in a godly, responsible, meaningful way.

• Even though I am alone and constantly aware of it, I’m finding my will power plays a role in helping overcome loneliness in public settings.

• I’m finally entertaining the mindset of being open to pursue new hobbies ~ new activities that may be different than the activities that Loren and I did as a couple.

“So, God…..keep giving me wisdom.  The scripture tells me You give wisdom to those who ask and since I ask on a regular basis, and stand beneath Your covering, that puts me beneath the open pipeline for a bucket  of wisdom to dump itself all over me.”

Happy Thanksgiving friends!  I’m blessed to have Loren & my 4 children and spouses, 6 grandchildren, my parents and siblings and their families, and my wonderful girlfriends Lorri, Eileen, Donna, Cindy, Kate, and the other ladies whom I’ve grown to love from Grief Share, along with Loren’s siblings and their families whom I love.  I am not alone.