I’ve just returned from one of the highlights of my life. While on this trip to Israel the 2nd  anniversary of his passing occurred.  That day held solemn moments and remembrance of him and our life, all while enjoying my current activity.  I had not purposefully planned this trip around the anniversary date however the two coinciding may just have been a blessing in disguise.

A blessing in disguise because on the trip I discovered:

1. I don’t feel guilty about traveling without him.  (Yet I wonder if that is because going to Israel was not on Loren and my bucket list?)
2.  I believe I need to travel while I am young enough  to get out there and walk those 6 miles a day to see the sights and take in a full day.  (I’m not convinced waiting for more money or retirement is a better time to travel.)
3.  I’m not interested in traveling the world by myself  so traveling with other’s works best for me. (And maybe having a hotel room by myself will be OK next time?)
4. I can enjoy new experiences and places even when when I am still moving forward in grief.

During my 11 day adventure I often pondered if going to heaven and leaving your loved ones behind on earth wasn’t a lot like me going on a trip  and leaving my loved ones at home; for I was aware of my loved ones who were far away at home, even missed them, all the while thoroughly embracing the new sights and experiences  I had found. I was content and could’ve stayed away far longer.

I leave you with the following quote I had read 16 months ago…it’s just now that this quote is applicable in my present journey:

”Grief is learning that it’s possible for a part of you to die WHILE you are still learning.”  John Pete.

I choose to keep learning.  I choose to stay on the path towards life.